hi

im am not lost ~ just busy! But hey...i am starting a new blog...building i should say! it will take a bit but once its up it will be REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY cool! i'll keep you posted! lind

hooverville

This killed me.

my brothers dear friend was just married and i got to take thier pictures! this bieng one of my favorites of the day.

so here is the new me!

I chatted with a dear friend Julie yesterday (shot her wedding this September!!) and we talked about how isolated we can get once married and have children... she encouraged me to reach out and MAKE friends.

I called a girlfriends sis n law today and picked up her son and took hers and mine to a kids movie at the dollar theater! It was fun! and i figure that the more i reach out the more i will have friends and resources all around me for help when i need it. and don't get me wrong ~ this wasn't to "gain" something down the road, it was FUN!

I just said no to the computer today! (wait, i am on it! LOL) but in any event i think i will take a nap now!!! wow, lindy

balancing me

I am at what feels like a precipice.

i have known for a long time that i work too much. i don't mean "work" i mean Lindy "go go go go go go go go then go some more!" In the roles of my life i am a

mother first and foremost.
wife
teacher
photographer
business owner/women (this alone is like 10 different things)
homemaker (again ten more things)
Christian


I could keep listing but the point of this rant is that i feel so isolated. I am successful in my business ~ in fact i cant keep up with the demand for my work ~ my son loves me and i love him. I try my best to keep my home clean and a place that the spirit of God can preside in. I should be bursting with fruit flavor right? Where is my starburst?

I don't want to say that i am feeling a depression but maybe i am? I am just too tired to be depressed! lol

Each of the things that i listed are close to if not two full time jobs! and i am just lost in them. all the things that i listed are things that i provide or do for others. where did i go? I feel like the song by the counting crows 'have you seen me lately' just sort of buried under my responsibilities.

last week i read a novel till 5am because this other world i was in was fantastic and free ~ then i was a horrible mom all day! it was such a miserable attempt to enjoy me time! is there me time?

i am almost wanting to quit, run away for a few weeks. (with cooper of course) but i know that this fragile world that i live in would disappear if i stop. I want to have a hobby. I want to have friends that call me to "hang out". I want to have friends and family that can watch cooper so i can date my husband.

what a complainer right? ugh. feel pretty alone. and buried. where did i go?

I have a motto pinned up by my computer that reads

"I am not the sum of my responsibilities. I am not a photographer, or a statistic, or a constitutionalist, or anything other people think i am. I am REAL. I am TRUE. i am ALIVE. and right now i am taking a moment to remember that and BREATHE."

I read that daily and then think..."sigh, wonder when that will Feel real."

cooper cracks me up!!!!!!

he said a few things the other day....enjoy!

we heard him wake up from his nap and rushed into his room and climbed in his bed one of us on each side and he yelled "ONE AT A TIME, ONE AT A TIME!!!!"

at the pool i helped him put his swim cap on and got my hands stuck and said "help cooper my hands are stuck under your cap!" and he said"well, it looks like your swimming with me!"

rafting the river with my mom i said"why do humans have hair on their toes?" mom says"i don't" Jon then asks her if she is a human...cooper says "yeah, are you a dog Grammy?"

he is getting so smart and so witty! and i LOVE his sarcasm! (much to his other grandmas dismay) we are a sarcastic bunch!

at dinner he spits some food in conversation and i tell him he just shot some food out..."cus my mouth is like a gun!"

then i use his straw and blow bubbles and said "oops, i put the straw in upside down!" and turned it over and sipped it, "thats better" he stares at it and then picks it up, turns the straw over again, drinks, and then says "mom, this thing works both ways" all knowingly

rad. rad. rad.

my little rant. lol

Hi, needing a little me time i guess. End of season, 20,000 images sitting in my computer to edit. Tired. feeling alone.

i am just too busy. i need to limit my work more than i do or i am going to look 50 at 30. my job lets me keep my one friend....and shower at times. lol, but its true. thank goodness for kim hanging in there and helping me soooooo much. she is nannying Cooper for the next couple weeks to help me keep up. i should be able to catch up over the next few.

wondering if this is life...busy busy and you never catch up. whats the trick? funny thought~ each fall i think "man, its going to be easy being JUST a mom again. but then each spring i think..."i am sooooo busy as a mom how will i do another wedding season?"

I love my job. I love being a mom. I love serving in my ward. I love social hour...i just seem to always struggle with balance!

will i ever GET IT? i need to go running. Or to a movie, or get a massage. I love my LIFE but man, i am tired.

THE BEST I HAVE EVER DONE

PLEASE!!! family/friends watch my slide! i am sooooo happy with this wedding i shot yesterday! jon came with as a second shooter and captured 10 of these images! (and TONS more...just ten in)

WAAAAAAAHOOOOOOOOOO. tell me what you think please!!!

cooper and Natty martineau!

here are my two favorite images of late... (over the last two days lol)

cute right! spunky little kids!

I am PUBLISHED!!!!!!!!!!

look! i was in the premier bride magazine!!!

isnt this cool!!!!!

so there is a new decision

for my friends and family wondering where i went...well...

i decided that keeping 2 websites, blog and a recent work page updated at all times was too much. i needed to compartmentalize life a bit too. so this blog is just a personal blog. for things that happen, pictures i take and love! and just a bit of everything. but it is no longer advertised on my splash page...

here you go! starting today... rain! cooper and i dressed up and rain hopped a bit today! FUN! see?

things have been so busy. i need an outlet to me again! so i am going to let this be about me! :) and my family and friends of course. thanks for supporting me! lindy

Nick and Ang's family!

I got to take a couple more of Nick and Ang and their girls today! i love them! and i finally asked to hold little marley! She got me crying just telling me stories about Jesus! i love that family!

family night at settlers park!!!

And the joy of my life! my little Cooper English BK Martineau!!! He is my favorite reason!

Kims daughter Lilly. coopers best friend.

i love my little sissy in law, i love my nanny! so does her cooper!

i love this shot! i love this baby!

yeahoooo!!!! here is little kara swinging away!!! i LOOOOOVE capturing memories of my friends and family!!! She is soooo stunning! And here is her mommy, kim. my kindred spirit!

Megan and Mario's wedding!

Here is a picture Jon took of me showing Meg and Mario a few pictures we took! isn't this fun! i am glad that he shot this one! slick here to see them all! :) (the sneak peek that is!)

here is my two favorite from today as well...

this black and white one is soooo beautiful to me! the were all alone on the course and i just thought... this photo shows how NO matter what the wheather was like they were so in love and didnt notice!!! there is second color image that i shot of this... love it too!!! so stinking happy!

katie and i picture hunting

Katie, my raddest most favorite sister and i hiked up Mann creek res on a picture hunt. (we won!) aren't these gorgeous!!! more about my sis below!

Katie leaves on her mission next week. I couldn't be more proud of her. i was looking at her the other day and thinking "she doesn't look as old as she is!" and it hit me ~ she grew up! weird, right? yeah! But she is such a strong girl, and so gorgeous, and happy, and smart and wonderful. i am so glad she is my sis. good luck Katie. pray lots, keep god close and serve with your whole heart!

I got to demo this lens for Elaine and Justins wedding and of course fell in love with it! the ability to control your f stop all the way zoomed in is fantastic! look at these sharp images!!! wow, i want to buy that les yesterday! and on top of this fantastic lens this was the weddin gi have been anticipating for the last few months! My favorite moment was watching Elaine dance with her dad when it was thought before he wouldn't even be there for her wedding! here is my favorite picture from the wedding...
I was so thankful that i met them, learned Marks story and was moved to help! her wedding was fantastic and all their vendors did an outstanding job! thanks to everyone who donated services to let Elaines dream happen!

to see the whole sneak peek click here.

I got the privilage of shooting Tim and Michelle and thier two dogs. aren't they adorable???? they have a full few pictures of them on my sneak peaks...

Look at these cuties!!! Jade and Reece

They were so layed back and calm! We had so much fun! and little Reecey's eys!!!!!! i just fell in love with them! so flippen cute! and to view all the sneak peek click here

Little Marley made it! :)

the rest are ready! click here!

here is just two of her! the slide is bieng finished soon! :) watch for the updated link!

Anthony!!!

here are two of Anthony's Senior images! isn't he handsome! my son, Cooper, said he wants his hair cur like his!

little baby Jillian

I shot her mommy and daddy's wedding 2 years ago! it was great to be able to shoot thier first baby together! I cant wait to take pictures of Jillian with her big sister and big brother! :)

Piper is 14 days old!

Isn't she a gem? She was sooo long! like her daddy! :) I fell in love! thanks for having me record her B and BJ :) click here to see more!

watch what my mom sent me! FUNNY!

http://news.cnnbcvideo.com/?nid=ri7AIE2P.Z04LBLtW_FhAjEzMzU4NzI5&referred_by=16374817-gpK_tux

I am

One of my photographer icons posted the challenge to write three things about you that start with the words 'i am'

here is mine:

1 I am a mother, wife, friend, photographer, humanitarian, latter day saint, lover, cultural human and child of god.

2 I am not defined by my country, my clothes, my house, the contents of my wallet or any other material thing or world organization.

3 I am Lindy.

In Laue of this challenge i have started making self portraits that i feel can show how i feel that week. this is one that i set up last week. i will share some of them as i take them!

and ~ i started a new project...for boise's homeless... more soon.

you will laugh

this should have you laughing... and remember ~ wait for it!

JUST KIDS is officially launched

Please take a few minutes to visit my new website dedicated to our children! I think it turned out wonderfully! let me know what you think! click here... JUST KIDS

(PS that's my niece... isn't she breathtaking???)

Ayva Sol only 9 days old

Aren't they so beautiful? I really enjoyed capturing these for them! Ava was such a little angel! Here are two of them... but click here for a few more!

Shauna and Chris's wedding!

Today i was at barber Park shooting Shauna and Tuff's wedding! SO BEAUTIFUL! maybe my favorite this year! so simple and perfect! here are two of my favorites from the day ... but click here to see a slide show from the day!

thanks guys for letting me be part of your day!

so excited to meet Marley

Can't you just see mommy gently rocking little M to sleep in this serene room?

Soon Marley will be with us! And surely just as sweet,

beautiful, kind, and thankful as her sister Miss O. i loved seeing her clothes so READY for her tiny body to wear!

She really is too!

I love tiny feet!
This book caught my attention... because Ang and Nick
have really made a HOME for their new baby girl to come into!